I don’t know anymore

I’ve been tossed away from everyone. It’s way to late to get my life I loved back. I’ve been erased from people’s lives. A woman I loved so deeply for 20 years just walked and forgot me in less then a day. Lifetime friends don’t even call to check in or even answer my calls. Family members that treat me like I was never part of their lives.

I see and hear of the brothers who are best of friends and then I think of mine who never have been there for me, unless they needed something. I see and here about how friends and family gather around to help someone and support someone,  I have none of that these last few years.

I can’t do this anymore. I feel like a nobody. I wasn’t wrong with what I wrote last time. No one cares around here and I just can’t seem to make a friend that does around here either.

I’m just tired of writing the same thing over and over. I make the effort, but run into walls everytime.