Buying a love

So there is soon to be a new woman in my life. One I hope cares enough to stay. One that will not turn selfish enough to disregard vows, family, history, and 4 little boys and utterly destroy me for in what she says is financial security.

Maybe this new woman will appreciate what I do for her and sometimes understand when I just need a cuddle. Maybe, the next time I have a health issue that effects me, the initial instinct isn’t to run to another man.

Hopefully she doesn’t guilt me when I am trying to do the right thing only to blame me when I finally cave and the results aren’t what she expected. Hopefully she doesn’t constantly berate me for not being what she considers who someone should be.

Maybe she will be the friend who actually comes to me as much as I am expected to come to her. I won’t be a chair filler on game night and included to dinner night. Maybe she will be concerned to check on me, atleast once, maybe?