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I’m really really trying today. I just want to normalize that this is what it is and stop trying to make it more in my head. It’s about as good as it will get and I have to be ok with it.

Short of that I’m sitting at work for the next two hours praying I have a parking spot at home.

Fighting the urge to write Patty some meaningless dribble to her now. Or the boys, trying to make conversation when they are busy with TV or games. I’m sore so busying myself at work is hard.