Back to the ol’ grindstone

Well I did it. I finally wrote the text to the ex and my sister.

A little back ground, my ex has been the worst, not about the kids or anything, but the total 180 she has done. Now before I get the usual ex stories, this is totally a personal thing. When you’re with a person throughout years of some very traumatic shit like we were (deaths, accidents, and such) to end things in a blindsided way without even an explanation is just fucked. My sister, well since day one has made this all about her and how it effects her life, no once offering a shoulder to cry on or a hug or a kind word or visit. I still remember how she once said that I was making my divorce “all about yourself.” OH, and how my brother in law literally threatening me to stop talking to her, because she didn’t need anymore grief then what she already had…

Well the few times I have been able to communicate with her was always meant with the “if it’s not about the kids, then don’t contact me or I will have you arrested for harassment.” I KNOW, really. I wasn’t texting and calling 24/7 every minute, but I had my low points where I thought the old her could be reasoned with, sue me..

Anyway, I was supposed to take my one son last weekend. I sent a text asking if there was anything going on, he’s the active one with clubs and such… No answer. I talked with my oldest and he told me their Aunt, my sister, had plans for him. A slight anger grew, but the boys always get spoiled so, I kind of let it go. Sunday rolls and around and I find out their Aunt never showed to Sunday afternoon, I would have him home by then, so whole wasted weekend where I sat around depressed and lonely wishing my marriage didn’t end and dwelling on another alone Christmas.

Needless to say this “snapped” my common sense so I drafted the text to end all text and sent it as a group message to them both so they would see the shit I go through because of the both of them and ask I expected, nothing. Not even a hate answer but, I know they both received it and I have a little less weight hanging on me. It’s not like I haven’t lost them in my life already….