Answers
I have always (unfortunately) been one who needs to know the who, what, why, and how about things. I never was one to go with the flow and let things roll over and off me. I know that this has been the anchor to my ex. Oh, trust me, I know what she did and I know I never want to hurt this way. I know that things between us will never be right or how it used to be.
But, what is holding me back is the answers.
What did I do?
Why did she do it?
How did it happen without me noticing?
Where did everyone in my life for the last 50 years go?
I have tried and failed most of my life to not need the answers. To me though, it feels like the times I let it flow, things went south and I’ve lost all control.
There was a time right after the break when I was so so lost I wish I would have been committed. The psychologist and therapist have helped greatly, but it seems I need to have someone on call 24/7.
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I like the Who, what why, how…but we don’t always get it. How to move on? Time…and that’s different for everyone
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