2/14/22

Day 11

Valentine’s day has become the worst day for me. When I had just separated with Patty 3 years ago, I still had the ability to come and go at our home. Now this was about 3 weeks after I moved out and she moved the “new” guy in. So ofcourse the first thing I saw was the roses. Yuck.. What a lazy thing to do for Valentine’s day, give flowers that will die in less than a week. Then I saw the card….

I knew Patty’s handwriting right off the bat. The sentiment was one I don’t think I ever heard from her directed to me in our 20 years. Yes, she had told me she loved me now and then, but what she wrote him in this card broke me further then.

” I’m falling more and more in love with you every day. I never thought I could feel like this. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.”

It was only 3 weeks since I left to give her “space” . What did I do that was so bad that she push away any love for me and just say that to another. I never have recovered from that, as I am sure most know.  So needless the day of “love” is the day I had my heart torn to pieces and scattered to the winds. Just one of the several “holidays” I now spend alone and hear from no one.

On top of that, the IRS has sent me a nice Valentine’s gift. I did my taxes and had the double, triple checked and sent in January. I was due a refund that would finally help me to get ahead with at least one issue in my life, but no. Seems after they did their “magic” I now owe. I have no idea what type of voodoo math they used, but with all the stimulis stuff and well the Government changing stuff continuely, I have decided to fight it. I just really could have used the money, but as they say “If it wasn’t for bad luck…..”

**** Strawberry, I just saw your note on yesterday’s post. I had started to write this beforehand and I just can’t bring myself to erace it after all that typing….LOL