Monday, Monday

The manager where I work got fired and we were left in a lurch for a while but now we have a temporary manager. I have only worked with her one day but she seems phenomenal and it’s good to have that strong presence again.  She has said that my coworkers all speak highly of me and of my progress in learning the job, and she wants to help me assume more responsibility at work. That’s awesome.

This morning I was expressing that Mondays are hard for me because usually we have this one girl who works there sometimes who talks way too much and is sort of just annoying and on Monday mornings I am tired and it’s hard to adjust to being back at work, and it’s generally just not a good time for me to be around this girl. Well one of my coworkers who I was telling this to starts saying things like "Calm down, it’s ok" and I wasn’t even heated in the slightest. But it’s got me thinking about how I must come off to people. I must seem really extraordinarily negative and/or uptight about things. I don’t want people to see me that way because I know it’s not the most attractive thing ever so I’ve made it a goal to shape up that part of my life. I have put 3 rubberbands on my right wrist. I get two for negative thoughts (cuz they’re harder) and 1 for negative speaking. They stay on my right wrist until I’ve thought a negative thought, or spoke a negative word and then they get transferred over to my left wrist. I will mark off days on the calendar for when they remain on my right wrist. After a month of solid marked off days, I bet it will be a sustainable habit.

Otherwise, life is pretty much the same.

I’m reading The Executioner’s Song by Norman Mailer and I’m at a very depressing part in the book. I’m also reading a non-fiction called The Girls Who Went Away about women in the 1950s and 1960s who had babies out of wedlock and were forced to go into maternity homes and then to give their babies up for adoption. So not the most upbeat reading at the moment (but when is mine ever?)

That is all  I think.

Thanks for all the warm welcome backs, guys 🙂