I can’t belive I did that.

Okay so I finally told this guy that I’ve had feelings for the truth and now I feel completly stupid. Why you ask cause now I find that he dosen’t really want to see me. Or actually dosen’t know if he wants to see me. I’m crushed. I talked to him last night and I told him that I want to see him and I said I don’t know if the feeling is mutual but…and he said I don’t know. I wanted to cry. So I told him oh well it has been nice talking to you then. He said Don’t be like that. So I said yeah whatever how do you expect me to react to that? no awnser. Then we changed the subject and after a while he said he was going to bed. So he gets offline,I do know him personally by the way, Then like two seconds later he’s back on. I told him I thought that he was going to bed. He said I was but I forgot to e-mail my friend about the plans tomorrow. I said oh. Then I said I feel like crying, oh why am I telling you this nevermind and he goes ok. I go so your saying you don’t care? Crap why am I being like this it’s probably because I didn’t realize what I had with you till I lost it. He said please lets not talk about this right now. I have your number I wil call you. I go yeah okay well I’m gonna go now ttyl. he said okay bye. No I really don’t know what to do. I just want to break down and cry. I told my sis what happend and she said maybe he’s just not ready to see you yet. You know it may be a lot for him to swallow right now. I said yeah I know but It still hurts. She said He’s worth the chase. But yeah I just want to cry I feel bad for some of the things I said but its the way I felt. I was hurt so I said what I meant at the time. err I just don’t know.