NJM 7 – Amazingness! *Warning*

Today was like the most amazing day of my life! Before I go into it I must put a warning. If you read this and don’t agree, Just move right on along. I do not want the negative comments or hateful notes or anything like that. This is MY diary and I post what I want to remember. Okay? Okay. lol. I just had to get that out of the way.

Started my morning getting up and getting ready for church as usual. Jerry came with me yaaay! He hasnt come with me in a very long time because of school. He said he’s been missing the church and being around me (no idea why he loves being around me so much but hey its all good lol). So I’m like why don’t come down? Surely you can take half a day off from studying to come to church and have lunch with me. He was all for it and even excited about it. Soooo he picked me up, we went to church, had a GREAT service where I met Pastor/Prophet Bob (I need to find out his last name. He really made an impression on me tonight), then afterward Jerry and I went to Hardee’s for lunch. Their burgers are wonderful! I felt fat as all get out after I polished one off but I enjoyed it going down let me tell ya! lol

Anywho I came home and took a nap after Jerry left. I got up to get ready for a special evening service to hear Prophet Bob speak. He had spoken Friday night and last night but I missed those nights. I totally forgot he was coming into town. My memory has been horribad lately for some reason. Anyway, I thought Shalonda was gonna pick me up for the evening service but Travis came to get me on the church van. Anyway we get there and I praise and pray and dance like usual and got settled to hear the message. When service opened up for prayer a few people lined up at the alter for prayer. People were falling out from the Spirit which is always awesome no matter if I see it happen every week or not. It always has me in awe and it makes me smile every time to see God moving. Well I’m just standing against the wall watching as I’m praying for the people up front getting prayed for. I wasn’t up front or anything so I wasn’t expecting to be noticed, but Prophet Bob pointed to me and asked me to come up and sit right next to him on the alter. Now… If anyone knows me, I am NEVER up front in front of people. I have always been more of a behind the scenes type of person. Except when I’m asked to teach youth class and I even get nervous when I do that. When I sing on the praise team, I’m in the background too. So being called out was new to me. Anyway I sit next to him, and he goes on about how when he met me earlier this morning "his spirit leapt for joy."  He said he asked Pastor about me and said something to the nature of me being very annointed. He also said I was dynamite because dynamite comes in small packages. I was completely blown away and still stunned that he even called me up to sit next to him in front of everyone. And I just start crying. Tears rollin and he was like you guys have no idea what all this sister has been through. It hasnt been easy. He was dead on about that. So he puts his arms around me and hugs me and tells the church (all the while I was still crying) that I am a prophet and God is going to use me in that way. A PROPHET! Me? In prophetic ministry? Me?!  He even told the church that when God moves me to speak they’d better listen to what’s being said. I was like wooooow. I would’ve said that too if I wasnt still crying. I mean I was bawling and he had 3 women of the church surround me and pray for me. They were hugging me while and even they started I didnt dare question it. If thats what God says, thats what God says. I learned a long time ago if God wants to use you, He’ll get His way one way or the other. About 10 years ago, it was spoken that I was going to be in youth ministry. I was like HA! Me? Getting up in front of teens teaching them? I dont see that happening. And look what I do now? And have been doing for a couple of years now. As much as I fought it, my life came together for me to do it anyway and I LOVE it. I love my kiddos and they are so much fun to be around and work with. And you know why all this amazes me that much more? Is that all day I had been wondering and talking about I have no clue where I’m going. I mean I’m trying to go back to school but I dont really feel like I’m supposed to be in school. But I was telling Jerry and Travis that I will go to school to get that degree to do youth counseling. I had happened to say unless I’m called into ministry full time. Lord help me. I’m not perfect but whatever God wants I know He’ll see me through. I’ve just got to take it one day at a time like I’ve been doing. Man I’m still trying to wrap my head around it all and what all was said. I am so in awe right now its not even funny.

I just wanted to record this in my diary. Its been so unreal. I love you all and God bless. *hugs and smooches*

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