I definitely like him…blah

Hey guys here’s the real entry I promised ya. Took me long enough huh? lol. Thank you all so much for the very sweet compliments and such you all left about my pics in the previous entry. I appeciate them. 🙂 You guys rock!

So about my title. Its about Ben, a guy I cant have. We talk everyday. Every stinkin day! Which is a good thing. lol. He texts me before work and we usually talk while he’s workin out at the gym or sometimes before he even gets to the gym. He’ll talk to me until he has to go to work then he texts me from work towards the end of his shift and talk to me until he has to head home. Then he’ll usually text me when he gets home which is usually around 2 in the morning and we’ll talk until at least 4 or 5 in the morning. And I just love talkin to him. He’s so uplifting and we never run out of things to talk about. He says he enjoys my company and stuff and things are just great. But he is still in love with his ex and thinks she may be the one. Blah! I mean thats cool. Who am I to say she’s not? But why, oh why, did I have to start having a crush on him?! *seriously kickin herself* He knows I like him too because I told him. I can talk to him about absolutely anything. I told him yesterday that he is already one of my closest friends. I’ve known him for almost 3 yrs but we lost touch and recently got back in touch. Since then we have just clicked and it amazes me. We’ve always gotten along but this time we just click. Anyway back to yesterday he said Im becoming one of his too and he doesnt get too close to anyone. He says it scares him. *frustrated sigh* Whenever he messages me I cant help but smile and get all girly and giddy and I hate it! Sometimes the things he says almost seems like he’s startin to spark an interest in me too. But yeah that ridiculous right? Why would he possibly be interested in me when he’s still hung up on her? Right? Someone tell me I’m being ridiculous. Yeah I need to stop. Someone just shake me and tell me to get over it.

New subject. I got my acceptance letter from Williams Baptist College wednesday. They included a little acceptance certificate which I thought was cute.  A couple of days later I got a letter sayin I have a scholarship for $2000 from them. Hallelujah!!!! That and financial aid is not enough to pay for everything though so please keep me in your prayers for the rest of the money to pay for school. I really need it and I’d really appreciate it.  I am really excited to be going to a new school. God wiling that is.

Kevin’s bro Chris is talking about wantin to start dating me. He’s real sweet and I love him to death. It wouldnt be fair to start dating him when Im interested in Ben right? Or should I just move on and just accept the fact that I have no more than a 1% chance of being anything more than friends with Ben? Rawr!!!! I honestly dont know why Chris would even want to date me. I mean I cant be there for him. He’s back in Ky and somethin is tellin me he wont do well with a long distance thing. And I know I’ll be iffy about it. *shrugs* Whatever happens happens right?

Umm other than that nothin much has been goin on. Keepin in touch with a few good friends. Debbie *hugs to Debbie cakes* , Misty, Mike, my sisters from back home, etc. Misty is wantin to fly me in to spend time with her sometime this summer. I cant remember if I wrote about that or not. But Mike said when I come in he’s gonna come and spend time with me. He even said he was excited about the thought of seein me again. Isnt that sweet? My little sisters have been askin me when I was comin back in for a visit too and they said they miss me. Rachel told me I was beautiful this morning. And last night she was like I dont see why you arent a hunk magnet because I think you are sooooo pretty. Little sisters are great. lol.  She’s such a mess. I love her. Well I guess I’ve written enough. I love ya all! *lots of hugs and kisses to all* Leave me lots of love and God bless.