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Me! it is 3:40 in the morning and I am wide awake. Why? I dont know. I was in bed by 11 and I actually fell asleep. Josh, my bro, called me about 12 saying he was coming home tomorrow. But then I fell asleep again and after a while I started to toss and turn. Then I woke up about 3:10 and I just could not fall back to sleep obviously. Oy. So here I am and thought I’d write an actual entry and update all my loves on a few things.

This new year has already been so different from last year. I have been much happier than I was… I’ll say the last half of 2007. The whole year of 2007 wasnt all bad but it was definitely one of my hardest years. I never want to go back to that place I was in a few months ago thats for sure. But anyway I have been hella busy this year so far. Especially the past month and a half.

I am more involved at my church this year too. I started singing on the praise team every Sunday morning and evening. I believe I started like the 1st or 2nd sunday of the year. Maybe the 3rd sunday. I cant remember. But I love it and I wish I had done it sooner but I guess it wasnt my time. I used to sing at my church in Kentucky with my friend Teriea and loved it then. I missed it and was debating on whether I should look into singing here. I went to practice with Mrs. Lisa one Sunday morning before service just to kinda get a feel for how they work together. And I believe I ended up singing with them that morning for service although I cant exactly remember how it all came about.

I am more involved with the church youth group as well. I’m actually teaching some of the classes now! Can you believe that? Mrs. Lisa asked me a couple of months ago to teach a 6 wk series of classes on love and "smart dating" so I was like suuuure why not? Honestly, I couldnt believe she thought I was capable of teaching them because honestly my walk with Christ has not been that strong for a long while and I was struggling with a lot of things. And she knew that but I guess somebody believed in me anyway. I started my first class… March 5th. First class I showed a dvd she had on smart dating which is where she got the series from and I just had an open discussion with the youth to kinda get a feel for what was on their minds and what they may be dealing with o curious about.. She had a few other series on different subjects as well. She taught the first one on making right decisions. Brother Carl taught the 2nd one on "home hurts" and now obviously Im teaching the 3rd one. Mrs. Clay will be teaching the last one but I cant remember what hers will be about.

Anywho, my 2nd class was completely off the subject on dating but then again not really. I picked up from where I left off on the week before and asked them to write down all the things they were struggling with and turn it in to me. I assured them that I would be the only one reading them and I learned a lot about them. They’re dealing with a lot. We also had another open discussion and I just kinda taught from what they threw out at me. They were VERY responsive and I learned just as much from them as they did from me. It really tickled me how everything unfolded and to be honest with you that night I had NO lesson plan. No scripture or anything. I had no clue what I wanted to teach the first day. I had a lot of ideas but didnt know which direction I wanted to take first so I was unprepared. I guess that left room for God to lead me in whatever He wanted to say to them. I dunno but it worked out beautifully. It amazed and encouraged me.

Yesterday I actually had scripture and a lesson plan. The youth wasnt as into it as last week but they still participated and was very cooperative. I think they still learned from it although they were probably too excited about spring break. Yesterday was their last day of school and they’re out all next week. Yesterday I actually taught on the subject of love. I may actually post my lesson maybe tomorrow but definitely before my next class just to kinda share with you what I’m doing.

God has been making many changes in me and my life. Slowly but surely my attitude about things have improved. I have been much happier lately and my life so far has seemed to be taking off. Spiritually anyway. I’m still in school. I still dont have a car yet and those kinds of things. But all of that will come in time.

Deannia and I have been spending ridiculous amounts of time together. Literally almost all day everyday. I havent been over there all week yet which feels unnatural now. Even she says so and she tells me her and the kids miss me being over there. I’ve spent the night over there several times and sometimes 2 or 3 days straight over there so I guess theyve made me part of the family. Deannia is now claiming me as the kids’ aunt and her sis so yay! for me.

Donnie and I dont really talk any more at all. Every so often he’ll call me for a few mins or I’ll text him here and there just to say hi. Thats about it though.

Jacob and I kinda started talking again for a bit but that fizzled just as quickly as it came back around. It was for the best though. Him and I are still friends though so yay!

I’ve been spending more time with Mrs. Lisa (Leroy’s mom) and her family. I spent literally all of Sunday with her. She took me to meet quite a bit of her in-laws. Which came as a complete surprise because it was supposed to be just a family thing but she invited me along to lunch and everything with her. I was with her from like 8:30 in the morning until about 8:30 at night. She also called Leroy while I was with her and put him on speaker so we could both talk to him. She told him she had a daughter now.  Woo hoo I special.

Leroy will be home in a couple of days!!! I’m super excited about him coming home. I’ve missed him. He wont tell me or his family what day he’s coming. He says he wants to surprise us. Blah but I know he’ll be home before Easter. Cant wait to see him.

Oy, I’ve written too much and its 4:20 soooo I’m off to try to get a little more sleep before getting up to head to the gym and then to my classes. Oh yeah I’ve been working out almost everyday for the past couple of months. I say over the last year I’ve gone from a size 12 to a size 8. Had to slowly but surely buy a new wardrobe. Still working on that. I showed my new tatts and piercing in my last entry. Got those done all in the same night (Feb 29th). I dyed my hair red the next week (March 7th). And I got my nails done last month and I have actually been keeping them filled in and such. I’m going to get them filled in and fixed again Friday. I ended up breaking two this week. How? I dont know.

Ok I think I’ve covered all the highlights so now I am officially off. I love you all and God bless. I have missed you all like crazy. I’ll try to be back on here more often and keep you updated. *hugs and kisses*

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