It works!!

I am so relieved to finally be able to write on here! I have been trying to write an entry for a month but there was no box to write in! I had to download Firefox and now it’s working YAY. I lived with Jason for 9 months and not being able to write about feelings etc. was doing my head in. And hardly seeing mates didn’t help either.

The last time I wrote in here was May, it was about Jasons and my year together. It’s now a year and a half and we’re very happy still. Jasons planning to propose next year and we’re going to look for a place of our own next year too. I know we won’t have any problem living together because of the 9 months we did, and didn’t once moan about the living situation. We see each other almost everyday and miss each other if we miss that one day lol. It’s all coming together!

I’ve since then found out my kitten, Tinkerbell, is actually a boy!! Was really embarassing but funny at the same time, that poor cat! I try to call him Tink but Tinkerbell does slip out sometimes! He had the snip last Tuesday bless him. He was so scared when I went to pick him up from the vets! His eyes were all sleepy cos the sleep stuff was still wearing off. He was waddling about when we got home I gave him so many cuddles..

I’m now all moved into my flat. I am enjoying I just can’t keep up with the bills. I’m still working my college hours which is only Friday and Saturdays. I am looking for a new job but its quite hard with all the Xmas temps that most shops have and I don’t want that! I can’t risk not having a job ready for when the temp job finishes. I’m looking for a full-time job and had an interview the other day but I don’t know if I got it, I don’t think I did. It really is getting me down though, I just went 3 weeks without even having any money. Getting paid Friday but I have £-120 coming out then a £30 charge so I think most of my money is going to go in the first couple of days. I keep losing weight and don’t eat dinner some nights. Once I get a full-time job it’ll be so much easier. I think I’m going to lose my flat soon though. I’ve had a couple of bad letters in. I was sobbing my heart out last week because of the stress. If there was enough room here Jason would move in and help out but theres not! It doesn’t help that Christmas is coming up and still need to buy Jasons (got most of it already), 2 nephews, 1 neice, 1 sister, Jasons mum and my Mum. Last payment before Christmas!! Shitt. I’ve got a laptop now and I know it won’t help with all the money problems but I was driving myself insane with the boredom! It’s not that expensive anyway.
All my friends go out all the time and they ask for me to go out and almost everytime I have to say no because ofthe bills. Money goes too quick when you’ve got your own home and it’s more important to keep paying the bills. I do want to go out though, more than anything! I’m missing out on so much. Lauren bought her and me a GORGEOUS Chicken Korma takeaway!! SOO good! I was so happy 🙂 True friend! Was really sweet of her! She knows how much I love the culleryy lol. "I see a little chicken tikka on the side!" I’ve even had my Manager cook and bring food over to me with milk, bread etc cos it’s gotten so bad! I can’t even get a loan arghh.

As I mentioned above I’m still working in the same shop, it’s still shit as always. They don’t look after their staff at all. Working your arse off 08.30am to 18.00pm and only getting a half hour break after 2.00pm! I felt so sick the other day, starving. We have a new Supervisor and she’s actually amazing lol. She brightens up the place and makes me laugh so much! Saturday she took me with her to take the banking and on the way there she bought me a hot sausage roll and a hot chocolate on the way back! I wasn’t even hungry by lunch 🙂 We was meant to employ Xmas Temps in September but no, they waited until this Saturday just gone to employ one person and on Sunday another. We have been so short staffed before then! We had to change the whole shop around because Vanessa the area manager that had the job for about a month told us how to do it all wrong and then left her job!! So we’ve been getting moaned at by all these different area managers coming in from different stores. We all seriously felt like we were back in school. I do have true hate for that shop, and it’s customers. Not all customers, some are lovely but then there ae some really evil ones.

Jason and his Mum have been a great help to me. Cheryll has been picking me up and dropping me home, taking Jason over here and picking him up for work, lending me money, cooking me meals etc. She’s such an inspirational woman for all the things she has to do in one day whilst getting the cooking, cleaning done and looking after two foster boys. She never stops!! Ken has finally moved out, he got found out of his huuge secret and Jason and Cheryll now want to kill the fat fuck. I’ve never liked him, all he does is pick on anyone vunerable. I remember when he used to say he wanted to hang my kitten, eughh the anger inside me.. He has severe heart problems and could die ANY day now. Jasons saying he wants Ken to die. Hmm.

I went to Kaylies Hen Night the other week, and her reception with Jason and the girls on Friday. I’m still shocked that she got married but I hope she has a happy future.

I’m gonna go cos need to do some cleaning badly! But now I can write in here again it won’t be long before my next entry!

Byeeee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx