Her wedding

Ok. I told one of my best friends Id be a brides maid in her wedding. she needed one more girl before she thought to ask me and I brought it up. She said she didnt even think to ask me because she knew how tight things are for me right now and she wasn’t sure if I could afford it. I mean it will cost me 200.00 for a dress I will only wear once and then I’ll have to spend money for shoes, my hair, a slip, and flowers. And then Ill have to by a gift for the bridal shower and the wedding and I have to because this girl deserves the best from me. she has been a friend for years and always there for me even if we live 2 hours apart currently she has BEEN there each time. Anyhow, I told her yes I told her I could afford it and with time I can. I was off work from December until January and a lot of bills just got behind I am trying to catch up which I am almost done and ahead. But it seems like there is no such thing as ahead. Now its the wedding and old bills I put on the sid eyears ago and I HAVE TO spend money on my beat up 85 ford tempo. It needs little things that add up and if I put that on the side anymore I may end up dead on the street or something.

Anyhow I dont know what the issue is here. To some it may be I am just rotten for thinking of bailing on a great friend but to me money is something that completely rules over me. I don’t know what to do at all in this situation.I do have until August to come up with the rest after putting half down????? HMM