Oh Canada

I thought I was doing better today, and perhaps I was.  Now I just have a sinking feeling in my heart.  Half of my problem is that I haven’t slept.  The other half is him.  

I am working on forgetting him.  I know that’s an impossible feat.  Sometimes my brain is my worst enemy.  Somedays it just doesn’t turn off. 

So in the meantime I am working on going to Canada.  Get away for awhile.  Not sure what to do with Lily.  Maybe he will take her.  I doubt it.  But I haven’t ever asked him to do that.  I could really use a get away.  I just need 4 days.  A week would be awesome.  I don’t remember the last time I had a vacation.  And by vacation I mean, time to just get away.  It just seems like a dream.  But how do I ask him?  What will he do with her during the day when he is at work?  To bed honest, I don’t really care.  How many times have I wondered the same thing?  May his friends could watch her?  She’d love spending time with "cookie." I am sure of that.

"Hey, i vetem.  You have some dark deep ceded problems too, don’t you?"

"Perhaps I do."

"How do I not know that?"

"We stopped talking about me a long time ago."

Her