Humph

I didn’t keep my word… I am writing here again LOL. SUE ME! haha .. oh anyway… i think i am really growing to like this friend of mine…. Well, we have been friends for 4 years already. (and yah, i feel kinda like i am betraying her here, cos we are supposed to be friends already… you know i shouldn’t break the platonic trust here). So, recently, i am really growing to like her. I doubt it has developed into those longing love kind, but i think with time, it would.

So we have been friends for so long. It would really be weird if i am to tell her i like her. Its so confusing. I really suck at talking to girls, whats more to have to deal with them. Not to forget, I am not even sure about how i feel about her right now. It could just be some loneliness thingy cos i just started work or some other crappy but valid reasons. Tough. Then there’s this other thing, I have no idea how she felt about me right now, its just tough…

Its 2.53am now. Just got home. cos I was out with her haha. Its really queer cos she smokes and I don’t. and when she was smoking just now, it was totally like “the bad girl and the good guy”. Haha. gotta sleep now.