You wanna be on top?

 I spent all day yesterday and all day today so far watching America’s Next Top Model. I’d like to think of myself as a fairly intelligent person, one who doesn’t easily get sucked in to vapid entertainment that appeals to the lowest common denominator. Alas… this show is so addicting. (Warning: It’s a slippery slope into bad TV when you are unemployed such as I am.) It also made me think of girls very differently. Now I am never one to generalize. In fact, generalizations are one of my main annoyances or pet peeves, if you will. I think each individual should be judged based solely on their individuality and every person is different. Then again, I can’t deny that there are some similarities between some of the same type of people. For example: girls (or young women). Throw 12 of them into a house together and watch the clusterfuck of explosive drama erupt at every corner. How can people be so dramatic, judgmental, catty, self-righteous, vindictive and just plain bitchy? I just don’t understand it. I find myself actually talking aloud while watching this show, uttering such phrases as, "Oh my god… Seriously!? Wow… bitch." I don’t know if I’m in the extreme minority but I feel that even if I was thrown into a penthouse with 11 other strangers, I would never act in such a way. Then again, maybe I would succumb to the stereotype of my gender and be the biggest cunt of ’em all.

This show also has a knack for making me feel intensely bad about myself, physically. I’m not embarrassed to say that I am quite chubby. I am not fat by any means and, if I wear the right clothes, you’d probably think I was average. However, all my weight ends up in my gut (and just recently, to my great surprise and delight, underneath my chin) and makes me look like I’m about six months pregnant. Just recently, my mom and I went health club/gym hunting. We went on go-sees of the three gyms in my town (Snap Fitness, America’s Fitness and Anytime Fitness). I’ve had a membership at Snap two times in the past and I just found it so incredibly boring. Snap is for people who are hardcore and serious about weight loss. I’m more of the "Let’s have fun while we work out!" variety. That’s why America’s Fitness seems to be the right fit for me. They have tons of fun-sounding classes and I was very impressed with the attitude of a tight-knit community, where everyone is willing to help out with any kind of question or problem you may have. I’m trying to persuade my mom to get a family membership with me. Then, not only will I have someone to work out with, we’ll both get a discount on our bill.

Boyfriend starts college on Monday. It makes me sad for two reasons. Reason 1.) I won’t get to see him as much. Reason 2.) He’s three years younger than me and he’s surpassing me in life. What a jerk! How dare he have a good life? I’m only kidding, of course… kind of.