so i can breathe you in..

This past Sunday we had Darian’s birthday party. He is Brandon sisters boy (who is a month younger then Cooper). It was nice, we were only there for a short time because it was @ 1130am, Cooper naps at 1230-1 everyday so we took off. But it was still nice enough, other then one odd comment about Darian being the only grandson.. Uh What? Anyways.. I went to work that afternoon to close up the pharmacy for my coworker… and out of curiousity I check Melissa’s birth control prescription.. She has let it lapse, which I am 100% sure means, she is either trying or is already pregnant…
This frustrates me to no end. Should we hold off now on baby number 2? Of course logically it will take 2-4 months for me to even get pregnant after my md appointment in May.. But I really don’t want our kids very close together… It’s already frustrating enough ya know? Gah.

We had to take our dog to the vet today. I noticed yesterday open sores around her collar. She apparently developed some sort of skin infection.. (One initial scratch+heat+wet+irritation=spreading of infection all over her neck.. It’s nasty and sad. They had to sedate her to shave her, clean the wound and put some ointment on it.. We have to give her an antibiotic and a steriod for 10 days.. ugh! Nothing like giving a dog pills.. Yuck. I feel bad, but it wasn’t something we could have really stopped..

Work has been stupid lately.. I think my bossed laid someone off who was a good worker and who we NEEDED in order to have enough people to cover the shifts.. It frustrates the SHIT out of me, I even told him how valuable she is, even if a bit annoying she works hard and does her job.. If she does leave, or he DOES lay her off the schedule will be f*cked. Gah.

I am so lost when it comes to finding a babysitter for Cooper.. In a town where I know SO many people how can it be so hard to find a sitter who someone I know, knows.. Taking him to an absolute stranger does not sound like a good plan to me. But it seems like it might be the only option.. Saddens me.. I guess I better get calling around.. My SIL wants out by June.. Geez..

I sometimes feel like I am drowning. Not to be dramatic but everyday life is just so full with chores, food, baby, dog, husband, books, laundry, mandatory visiting(which we rarely do), money, bills, yard work, etc, etc.. I just wish I could work from home.. Or SOMETHING. Gah.

Cooper started to really walk on Sunday.. like REALLY. It’s cute, he kinda looks like a zombie with his hands straight out.. haha.. I love him.

Finally 90210 is on shortly.. I am off.