We Can Reach the Stars

 

 

I just love the feelings and story behind many country songs…

Considering all that I have written about my husband and how things have been, I am sure it is hard to believe me when I get all sappy and say all these loving things.

But with the way that we are with each other and how things just seem so right, often I wish that we met when we were younger…we might have then gotten to our perfect time earlier, I mean we are still working to get there…who knows we might not have gotten so lost in our lives and be wondering what is going on now and maybe things wouldn’t have gotten so bad.

But G-d has a plan right?

Gosh our first kiss was in a bar…or was it in a club? I don’t know when last I was in a club. This Covid has robbed so much. Thank G-d that he has spared me and my loved ones.

Since the day we started chatting on Facebook and WhatsApp we told each other all about what we wanted in our future. Our dreams and goals have always been pretty much on the same page…and even though I know we haven’t quite reached them yet, I know we can. I truly do believe in us and I do believe in him.

I really hope one day I can believe that he has. I may be wrong to have my doubts in him being my everything and I may be wrong to rely on him to do the impossible. I do love him, I just know that no matter how much I do right now, and no matter how much I believe in him and want to believe in him and us, I haven’t quite got to the point where I believe that he can do the impossible.

Maybe it is because I still hold my dad to such a high standard and don’t believe that anyone can get to that level. In my eyes my dad has hung the moon and every star. I hope that there will be a day when I can turn to my husband and look at him with the same ‘awe’ that I look at my father with. Okay maybe not exactly the same…

 

 

 

We sure have had our storms and I am sure we will have many more. I think I have let go with the belief that my marriage has to be like all the romances that I read and watch…well I suppose they too also have the their stormy scenes. I do feel like since my last ‘vent’ we have grown and that maybe our financial struggle is helping us get closer.

But damn he better not ‘pick me any daisies’. I really don’t like those flower…I am all for Yellow Roses