Started off the day with getting blood tests… were filled…and then off I went to see the …which just made me do some exercises with my arms and hands…only then to refer to a .  I am pretty sure that he gets commission for referring me to another doctor…I mean according to his diary I was the only client scheduled to see him today.

Funny how after seeing a doctor you suddenly feel all these other pains.

I seriously hope this isn’t anything serious. I cannot afford (financially and emotionally) to deal with more problems!

My sister told me the other day about how she has had to go off Medical Aid because she cannot afford it…kinda feel like I will be doing the same soon…and I cannot afford not to be on Medical Aid.

I keep applying to jobs and I keep wondering how to better my situation and life, but I keep getting …blah blah blah blah.

I also keep throwing away money at  and  hoping that I will win one day…but just feel more deflated when don’t see message on phone or bank account of winning the jackpot. I have such plans for that win. For my community and self and family. Does G-d not believe in my thoughts and that is why I am not being blessed with choosing teh lucky numbers and winning? Well gambling is kinda against G-d but a lil help would be appreciated.