Not Me!

On Saturday I did something that is not me in so many ways. I don’t know where it came from, but I suddenly got this urge to show my husband and sister in law (husband’s sister) that I could keep up with them and I was fun. So I was drinking lots, and that has never been a problem but started the drinking really early and then decided to buy weed edibles. I knew exactly where to go, as weed is kinda legal in Cape Town so there are shops which are selling, it right in the open. Anyway so I spent an exorbitant amount of money on 4 packets or edibles and I regret it.

   So it started off as a real struggle to open the packet of gummies. But eventually I managed to open it. I didn’t think anything of it and ate like 3 in one go. Then offered to my sister in law; who ate 1. I ate about another 3.

And I swear I was not high. I felt normal…but suddenly my mouth got all sticky and numb…and then I got paranoid that my sister in law and husband were not with me.  Finally when he got back with drinks for us, I insisted that my husband buy me a waffle with chocolate spread, which he did and I began to eat but then got more paranoid when I realized that they had both left the table. They had gone to smoke outside the food mall. But I was starting to not feel well. Let’s not forget that before I had the waffle my husband bought us each a glass of Pink Gin and Soda. I didn’t like it, but since my mouth was numb and sticky I was willing to drink anything to make it feel normal.

Finally I met up with them, outside and I told them I wanted to go home. I gave my sister in law the car keys. I knew I was in no state to drive, my husband was drunk (I think) and so she seemed like the best option.

I remember being in the car and hearing them argue…I also remember feeling confused because this drive home was taking long.

We finally get home….miraculously I find myself standing outside our flat front door, but when I looked over the balcony ledge I could see that my car was still being parked in the garage and I could hear my husband, but I had no idea where he was. I remember calling out to them…but then I remember throwing up and holding the vomit in my hand. Not sure if I called out to them but I did throw up!

Next thing I know my sister in law is helping me into bed and she is telling me my husband was cleaning up outside the flat.

Sunday was a blur. I was waking up, and falling asleep. I remember my husband also feeling left out so sometime on Sunday morning, he decided to eat a few of the gummies. So Sunday he was knocked out too and had the munchies pretty much the whole day, every time I saw him he was either sleeping or eating cake. I never felt that.

Anyway….so for the past few days I have been begging him to allow me to throw out the last remaining edibles, but he won’t let me as he wants to eat them when he is off work etc. I just don’t want anything to do with weed.

A few weeks ago I bought a Friends Coffee Machine and they were selling weed coffee capsules too…we have yet to use the machine but the idea of consuming anything with marijuana in it just puts me off. But I bought many other capsules…the weed infused pods are like only 20 and I technically did buy them for him.

I have realized that I get paranoid when I get high and that isn’t a nice feeling.