I Never Thought I Would be Taking Advice from a Kardashian…

…well, if had to be any one of them at least it was Kourtney. Right? She is the most  one out of the bunch.

Well, it isn’t really her advice when my husband has told me this many times before and when she got it from a documentary…but I am only considering it now after reading an online news article of hers.

Kourtney Kardashian Shares Rocky’s Rare Lung Issue That Led to Surgery (eonline.com)

I am always so concerned about how I didn’t in the Lotto or Powerball and don’t know how going to be able to continue living the life that I love and possibly grow it and I think about all my problems about my weight and how I am never going to lose weight or have children and the negatives I think about myself and my life can go on and on and on…

Last week at the therapist she told me how I should write positive characteristics about myself every day and while I have been doing that, I am not going to lie and say that I haven’t slipped in the negatives here and there but in true honest with all this positive thinking about myself I have been feeling good about myself and life. I have been enjoying it more and finding it easier to get through the day…I have been diligently taking my meds and keeping up with life.

Yes, sure having the house and greater salary will make life easier and make me feel equipped to be a mother, but I have it all already and I can do it! I know I will be a great mom and things will be great!

Yesterday I was in the shop and saw this young white woman talking to a lil black girl, who couldn’t have been older than 3, and she was pushing a kids’ trolley filled with shopping. Immediately I smiled and remembered the time when my white mom used to go grocery shopping and she would have me seated in the trolley while she filled it with groceries. I feel so much warmth when I see children and their moms and when I think back at the time with my mom and the things we used to do. I am reading this book and the main character was describing a time when she used to bake with her mom…now in the story her mom let her do a lot of the baking…but I remember my mom used to let me do a lot of the tasting…oh boy it was great licking the mixing bowl once all the ingredients were scraped into the baking dish…or licking the utensils