Don’t You Just Hate it When Everything is Lost???

My last entry was so much longer than what has been published….took a lot of time to find the right pictures and font etc…just to be told ‘Offensive Language’ was used and then to only have part of my post published… now I don’t know whatelse I wrote…and a lot of me just kinda wants to get into  and   or watch 

Okay, I am not going to recap on all that was lost on my previous entry…but I need to make a plan.

I need to make a plan and I can no longer rely on the few manipulative moments to get me through and to make believe that all will work out…

 I cannot hold onto the good times. I mean he is 41 and has nothing valuable to his name…well desides his car but he owes money for that…but then many people do too…but he doesn’t take part in any of the day to day running expenses and responsibilities. I mean I wouldn’t leave my child with him.

Oh my gosh I was listening to  and a lot of those lyrics I could put in context to my marriage. Okay, I have done that is many other songs in a fwe other posts…so maybe I will do that to this song too…

Okay it is getting late and I wanna watch …I am only on season 1 and  character and acting really irritates me…I hope she isn’t in season 2…although it would make sense that she still be in it. Aah…  is almost finished…I keep hoping that we find out that…

 is pregnant with  ‘s baby… or at least let them get back together.

Ooh I just remembed something that I wrote in my post that OD didn’t completely publish now…and it relates to something that my husband requested from me this morning.

Oooh…whenever I stress about our budget and finances etc he will rant about how he gives me money every month, even though it is never entirely enough not is it a constant set amount…but anyway he goes one about how he works hard and forgets about how I work hard to and actually stress on making the books balance and I attend to all the house duties, but he seems to think he does more when in fact he just does the bare minimum. Well I figured I would do the things that I need to do and if we run out of money and elevtricity before , then so be it…but then I am gonna suffer too and that is just gonna suck. Anyway I thought of a new thing. Instead of transferring money into 1 account and paying everything off that we would divide the expenses and I would use that other account for my personal savings adn benefits, since it is on my name anyway.

 

 he does work from home anyway so he should fit that bill the most.

 he does work from home anyway so he should fit that bill the most.

 which I mostly do already.

 which I do already.

 I am paying for both our phone accounts.

And then of course we each fit the bill for our personal expenses…

 we do that already…

 mine is on hold because I haven’t been able to pay for a few months and he doens’t have one.

Okay it is getting late…almost midnight and I still need to shower and watch  or maybe I will read…naa I will watch me some .