Day 24: Write About a Lesson You Learnt the Hard Way

Wow that is tough!! I think everyday I am learning something.

I think the things that I am learning the hard was is being overweight and taking things for granted.

The whole being overweight thing is a lesson that I have yet to actually fully change my way of being from. But I know that being overweight has resulted in a lot of issues that I deal with now…

• in ability to fall pregnant easily

I don’t think there is anything that I want more than to be a mom. And I cannot blame it on just being overweight for not being a mom yet, I mean it isn’t like I have actually followed through with anything to make a real difference and make my life easier and be thinner. I mean yeah I have tried many dieticians and regimes but have failed to follow through with any of them.

I guess this will be where my whole taking things for granted comes in….a few years ago when I had the chance to have a gastric op, I thought I could do it on my own and loose weight and I thought I wasn’t that fat….but 5 years later I am about 30kg heavier…and having the op is not something that I can do now…why? well if I have the op then I have to hold back on falling pregnant by minimum a year and then also I don’t quite have enough “bank” for the op.

• My lack of socializing

I have friends and I know if I wanted to that I could call them up and they would be ready to meet up immediately….but because I am a little self conscious the idea of being around rather slim looking ladies and ladies that have it all figured out kinds brings be down. And because I am fat; shopping for clothes is a rather pricey activity so I would rather just ‘slum it’ at home in my jammies or random clothes.

So I guess it is safe to say that if I stayed active when I was younger and took the chances that I had and if I looked after myself in my 20’s my life would be rather different now.