Calm Waters…

I woke up angry on Sunday. Not not just because my husband had been drinking etc…but because of stupid Shock Shimmy and all the Shock Horror . I had to schedule time to do everything, according to when I would have electricity…I had to plan when I was going to Arizonia my hair!!

Anyway… so we were at my friends’ house for dinner and my husband had a drink….he had a whiskey…I tasted it and it isn’t nice….but then again I don’t like whiskey….

Anyway….I noticed how he was chilled and pleasant all night. Even though he had that whiskey shot, he only had the 1 shot but he was great! And at then end of the night I was thinking that maybe it is me that has the problem with him drinking.

Maybe….

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the shouting
the twisting of my wrist
the turning over the bed while I was on it
the throwing of glass
the growling

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I don’t know, but since Sunday night him and I have been in a really good place. So I am back to forgiving him and wanting to be with him and being full of smiles and love and just in a good place.

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You can’t control his drinking, it is naïve to think you being present will make his drinking be okay.
Drinking is progressive. It is okay, until it isn’t.

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September 29, 2022

You are right! I just want him to control or stop his drinking, so I will tell myself anything to rationalize why I stay with him and cannot let him go.

I love him and since I am all talk and don’t follow through with ending things, I think I just need to accept his drinking and let him sort himself out. When he is sober he does say how he hates it.

Quoth the Raven "Nevermore."

I have no respect for alkies. I was born to one, handed to a couple of them as a foster child, my foster sister tried to get me into it, and I almost did… but no. 🙁

I am sorry you went through what you went through as a child.

When you love him, it is so hard!