אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 103
It is funny how one…or at least me…runs to the father when 
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Right now..like many other times in the recent year or so I am feeling totally lost and not sure where to call out for help. Maybe I am just too embarrassed to ask for help and pray that just by giving more of my time to G-d I will be able to find my way and he will be able to assist and things will go right.
I think I have accepted life being just me and my husband…I mean as much as I want a baby I am thinking it is time I focus on the 
and what I can Control and do.
ON Friday I decided that everyday, except for yesterday…I would like to think that because it was Shabbat I refrained from doing this but I think I was just too comfortable being in bed…I plan to spend some time everyday reading the Torah.
And so this week I have started reading 
Wish I could say that I fully understand it all…but reading the Essays has helped.
You know it is kinda funny that I started reading Genesis and read about how because Adam and Eve ate the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge…the woman would forever bare pain through labor and when she had our menstrual cycle. And what should happen to him on Friday morning? 
. But I got my cycle for the first time in like +/-57 days.
Anyway I took away a few questions from my Friday/Sunday reading time.
I understand that G-d punished Cain, for killing his brother, but I don’t think that just being turned away from earth and his surroundings is enough. Or maybe I am just not understanding it correctly.
Both are mentioned in the Torah.
One the 6th day G-d created Man and Woman.
Genesis 1:26 G-d now say, “Let us make human beings in our image, after our likeness; and let them hold sway over the fish of the sea and the birds of the sky, over the beasts, over all the earth, over all that creeps upon the earth.”
Genesis 1:27 So G-d created the human beings in (the divine) image, creating (them) in the image of G-d, creating them Male and female.
But then a few paragraphs later, once G-d has placed Adam in the Garden on Eden and after telling him he can eat in it freely but not from the Tree of Knowledge, G-d makes Adam a mate.
Genesis 2:18 The G-d considered =, “It is not good that the man be alone – I will make him a helpmate”
Genesis 2:21 Then, throwing the man into a profound slumber, so that he slept, G-d Eternal took one of his ribs and closed up the flesh in that place.
Genesis 2:22 Not G-d Eternal built up the rib taken from the man int o a woman and brought her to the man.
So what story is true? Was man and woman created at the same time or was woman created from man?
Well from all this I am taking on the realization that G-d didn’t want man to be alone and created woman, for him to share his life and The Garden of Eden with….until of course they were expelled.
Right now I am realizing how much I don’t like being alone. I am having issues with my new job because I am alone a lot of the day and mainly only interact with others via Microsoft Teams. I am clinging onto my husband because I hate being alone. I can only try and fix one of those situations and so after these posts I am going to apply to some jobs. I hope that next year I can start life with a new job and lease on life.
I love your diary entry! I think Cain wasn’t killed because it emphasized how much G-D loved his children, even when they did wrong, not matter how bad that wrong was. It may have shown the capacity for G-d’s fogiveness which is far greater than we ourselves are capable. And/ Or perhaps he had things to do that were still important, but we only get a very brief glimpse of his life. I think the first statement about G-d creating Adam and Eve was more a blanket statement of “this is all was done in this day” …and then goes into detail about HOW it was done.
I agree, sometimes it’s hard to fully understand what was going on in the scriptures. I sometimes watch Rabbi Tovia Singer on Youtube and I think he is brilliant in his explanation of things. (I am not Jewish, but I like understanding things and am constantly seeking truth.)
@elizabethbarstone-novelist , I like your explanation of G-d creating man and woman on the same day but only later explaining how he created man first and then woman from man.
I look forward to reading your novel. I love reading…although mainly RomComs…you know the cheesy fall in love with my secretary or quarterback and head cheerleader fall for each other at prom she falls pregnant and raises baby in secret and then life makes them bump into each other and blah blah blah stories.
Happy Writing!
@ncumisa Thank you so much! My last novel (The Time-Travel Trail Bride) was a romance with some funny parts in it, but the one I’m working on is hilarious (in my own humble opinion lol because I’m laughing all the way through writing it). I did a whole Diary of A Teenage Mom series under my other pen name and ran out of stories for those characters after 12 books lol.
@elizabethbarstone-novelist Wow! 12 Books? Have these stories been published or are they just OD enteries?
@ncumisa They are published under my pen name Aspen Faraway. The first one is Diary of A Teenage Mom and then there are 11 books after that. They are on Amazon and the paperbacks for the first three are everywhere I think, and the rest of the paperbacks will be out over the next months, but all are on Kindle.
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