Life is short, what just happened?

I’m 13 years old. I’m sitting in my homeroom in Jr. High, and on my teacher/family friends computer. I’ve just discovered my first Chat room. Technology. It blew my mind. I was hooked. I decide to see how to build a website. I find a easy1-2-3 builder. It blows ass. But I accomplished it. I go on AOL, become a freak and make “proggies” or programs intended to mess up everyone else. I was a bastard. I got banned later from a rival. He got me good.

14, a year later I’m using a WYSIWYG (what you see is what you get, a point and click designer) for Web Design on Angelfire. A group of 5 friends and I (6 in all) have a little circle we called the Posse, for no given reason. We made a Posse page.

15, I discover the “Myst” game series and “Diablo.” I decide to make a website dedicated to those things.

16, I create a Website dedicated to RPG’s (URPG Realm). I love em. I finally learn what I’m doing graphically and getting the nack for design. I discover Everquest. Oh shit.

17, we grow, I build more sites for fun, I help others build sites, I start learning alternate languages to help. I refine my design skills and improve. We get huge, over 1k hits a day on a slow day. peak, 2300.

18, Beginning of the E-commerce crash. Our server (makes on average 4000 hits a day combined, us being over 50%) tells use we have one week to get out. We were too big for them. Ok. They delete the site afte 10 hours, and I hadn’t gotten the site backed up, as we jsut got a new computer and was in the process of downloading it. It’s lost. 2 years gone. I try to rebuild, but lose my will to do so. I resort to Everquest, almost fuck up my life. in fact, I DID.

19, Done with school, starting college for web design. Can’t motivate myself to go, get lost into depression bad, fuck up badly and got arrested. Quit EQ, didn’t need that anymore. Continued to struggle in school.

20, Switch schools, thinking its the shitty program, goes ok at first, I lose all motivation again. My first car breaks, I get a Mazda mx6 GT. It’s fast, and I start to wonder about it.

21, I can drink now. I’ve quit school for Web design. I can’t bring myself to do it for a career. I love it, and it’s my hobby/passion. I’m enthralled by cars and how they work. I decide to switch majors to Cars, and plan to do so in the fall. I still do web design for fun, and freelance/contracted.

The whole idea behind this, is simple. Reality.

This, every word is true. Every word is what happened to me.

Every word, is reality. The real world.

The true way it all works.

You won’t always want to do the same thing, you won’t always want to change. The main point is don’t worry if you’re not sure what you want to do. And if you’re not positive about somehting, don’t waste your time. take some time off. one semester, one year. figure it out. I wasted 3 years of college and tuition on something I wasn’t sure about. don’t follow in my footsteps. but if you find its what you want, return. Don’t let foolish pride or parental nagging get in your way, it’s your life. live it the way you want. Enjoy it, and don’t let anyone run/ruin it for you.

As always,
James
AIM/MSN: Ziktick(@hotmail.com for MSN users) feel free to contact me.
QUOTE OF THE MOMENT: I don’t want to wake up, Lost in the Dreams of our Fathers. Oh, it’s such a waste child, To live and die for the Dreams of our Fathers. Though I must confess, yes, My view is a wonder about this. This love I possess, love, Must be the Dreams of our Fathers