I do two! (Part 2)

(Continued from “I do… for now”)

So I ask you, what’s the hurry?

If you are truly in love with someone, you can wait. You don’t need Sex. You don’t need to see them everyday. You don’t need to be with them, always. If you truly love someone, they can go away for work for a month without worrying you have left them, or is cheating on them.  True love means, you LOVE each other. What a novel idea, huh? You won’t need to call them 12 times a day. You will be able to understand how they feel without having to ask every 5 minutes. You will understand that you doing one thing won’t upset each other, and doing another will. You won’t get upset if they don’t want to go on an errand with you, and you won’t feel guilty telling the other that you would really rather not go.  Or maybe they want to go.

Just to be with you.

See,  I’ve been observing relationships all my life.  It’s kind of, just what I do.  When I’m in a relationship, I know exactly what I’m doing. The problem though, is my fear of loneliness.  I KNEW I was being mistreated, taken advantage of and such, but I didn’t mind cause I had someone to hug me. I’m not a very touchy feely person because I’m so shy.  I don’t have friends who I hug. I only hug an OLD friend, who I haven’t seen in a long long time, or if a friend is having a really hard time with her personal life.  Other then that, I have no shoulder to lean on. Nobody to talk to about my problems.  Nobody to hug, and nobody to hug me.  That’s the point I’m at now, and I’m frightened of it. But I can get through it, because I know this is how I will be unless I find my true love.  Do I think I’ll ever find her? Maybe.

Will I have the courage to approach her? I don’t know.

I’ll probably meet more then a few girls of whom have the possibilities to be the one. Will I find the one? Who knows. To those that are not, I just hope friendships can be made instead. Recently I’ve learned that dating is the key. You go out with someone, you date them.

But for god sakes, be yourself!!

If you pretend to be someone your not, if you two ever get more serious, things will fall apart, and will destroy you. Just act normal. If your shy, don’t try to something, tell them.  Don’t suffer and try and be happy, because if you suffer at the beginning, it’s not going to improve anytime soon.

Just be yourself, and don’t Bullshit. 

– James
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