Does she?

I don’t think she seems to comprehend many things. She says she tries, but it may not be enough. Does she not understand all the things I went through, just for her? Does she not understand how many times I took that fucking fall, for HER mistakes? How many times did my friend insult her, and I defended her, even though she was to blame. But I was her boyfriend, and I just can’t let people say things like that.

In fact, she only noticed that at certain times I did NOT say something. Because I’d rather confront someone face to face, alone, then with 4 or 5 others around, so I bit my tongue, as you must do in this life at times, until I could talk with them.

Why does she think she is exempt from getting the same treatment as all the ones that insulted her, now that we aren’t together? Does she not realize that many things said, do not stay between you and the person you said it to? Does she not realize that when she now insults my girlfriend, I’m not going to let that pass?

You called my girlfriend a slut. And for that, I am pissed. Just like I was to all my friends that ever insulted you. But now, missy, you’re on the sharp side of my axe.

You can’t handle being her friend? Ok. I can deal with that. But, if you can’t handle being my friend and me being with her, I won’t even try to deal with that. I will drop you faster, and harder, then you thought I was capable of.

You want to see me angry? Truly angry? Keep it up.

I dare you.

You call her a slut? Aren’t you the one, that two weeks before we got together, you were fooling around with my cousin? “I can’t believe you brought that up” Yeah, deal with it. It’s true. But did I let that stop me from trying to establish a relationship? No, because it didn’t matter.

Obviously it matters to you.

But I guess therein lies the problem.

See, the thing about reality, is that nobody gives a rats ass about anyone. Nobody concerns themselves with your problems, just as nobody does with mine. It’s life. Now it’s YOUR turn to deal with it. Nobody wants to hear you complain, whine and gossip, which is 95% of what you say often times.

Some of you out there, want to hear what I went through? Ok. Heres a list that I can think of now. 90% of her past, when I first met her were lies. She said her dad, a recovering alcohalic, was drinkign again, an when he drinks, he gets violent. So, My friends and I look out for her. We offer to protect her and help her. Until we find out it’s not true.

She was in a drunk driving accident. Her brother was driving, and they were hit head on. The other guy was drunk. Car was totaled, and she messed up her knee. She said the police said if she wasn’t wearing a seatbelt, she would have been fine. She said when she turns 18, she’ll get her share of the settlement. But she gave lots of it away to pay for her grandpa’s nursing home care, and her parents kept stealing from her. Oh wait, that never happened. She just made an excuse so that I wouldn’t force her to wear a seatbelt. Her knee was hurt playing softball, and what? no money? I doubt her parents even ever took money from her.

Enter Shawn. Shawn is her brothers friend, one of her best friends, and also an Ex. She tells me one day, that she goes over to his house now and then to hang out, and when she needs to escape from home (since it’s just SOOO bad, her parents are evil!! I wonder why) She would go over to his house, and SPEND THE NIGHT. Woah, thats a bit much. Nothing happens? Ok. I guess thats alright. I’m not the type to say what she can and can’t do. But wait, she wants to ditch this guy forever, but she still loves him. AND me. Aw, gee. She goes to get her stuff back from him and he stops her and kises her. She gives in and kisses right back. Then she breaks it off and tries to run away, and he chases her down and punches her in the ribs! Motherfucker! She tells me. Basically, i was jsut cheated on. And for the next 6 months, this man stalks her, follows her, so often times I’ll go down to watch over her. Oh wait.

This shawn guy?

Yeah, he doesn’t exist.

Yeah, I know. Pretty fucked up.

So, basically, she used my good nature for her benefit. She betrayed my trust, 10 times over. Truly used and abused. Not just the used and abused people say when they’re too dense to understand a statement, and believe it was never said. The real thing. Money, time, Gas, love, life. Wasted.

And that’s just the tip of the iceberg. But it’s no longer relevant what else she did. And even after all that, I stayed with her, trying to help her change. And for that, I had to defend her, 3 times a day. At least.

And what does she do? Turns around and attacks me.

Well?

So, tell me.

Just how does does my axe taste?

As always,
James
AIM/MSN: Ziktick(@hotmail.com for MSN users) feel free to contact me.
QUOTE OF THE MOMENT: You’re faking me out you wore a mask you’re a counterfeit, you’re faking me out you were a… Fake.