Timers, Momentum

A thing starts, it starts its own timer and probably several for a number of other things. The thing that precipitated these timers has its own momentum. Here, I can feel it, moving, travelling, running over electrodes to complete circuits and begin other processes.

I don’t know how long I’ll be able to write pragmatically but at present I’d like to maintain it for so long as I can. I’ve not had this much exercise in communication in a long while and though I wouldn’t say I’m unfit in this regard, I certainly could be more sharp. I can always be more sharp. I always want to be more sharp. This is another hunger of its own, I now suppose.

In the mean-time, I start several things at once. I make commitments, I set challenges, I allocate time and resources in several ways. Either I’m keeping busy or I’m spending excess energy, likely both. I’m measuring the time until I’ll be able to see more, but it happens. I perceive it happening. A thing that never stopped being in motion and was rather obscured, is thankfully becoming more clear. It’s that clarity that I now focus on developing.

I don’t quite know what I’m going to do with myself, now, this week, for the remainder of the year, the years to come.
I suspect I should put myself to good use while also take on the difficult and important task of crafting myself into less of a bastard. It can be relentless and dangerously damaging to myself and others. I’ve no idea how to even begin that process, particularly at present. I imagine it will become more clear and easier once I’m not so elevated.

What to do with myself in a year’s time though is an interesting one. I’ll have to see if I can sort that out.

That is all for this evening.