Sleep

I’m home from work today so that I can sleep.
Sleep I did, all the way until 2 PM.
That’s a lot of sleep.

There are days when I simply will not cope with work, interacting with people etc., today is one of those days.
On days like today I wish we still had cats, or at least one cat, to give attention to and to curl up with.
Better still, a lover would do just nicely, someone who would also take the day off and spend time with me either sleeping or watching films. Perhaps we could go for a walk.

I’m tired.
There are times when I believe I’m living my life purely by devoting all of my energies to keeping symptoms at bay and instead of living naturally, living by application of what is agreed normality. It takes a lot of energy to do this, and I really wish I didn’t have to.
I don’t really have much choice though, if I want to earn like I am, and keep on doing at least some of the things I want to do in life, I have to have a job, and that means using all of this energy rather than storing it and using it on inspired things.
I wonder if I’ll die younger because of this.