Periphery

– What.
— What what what.
– Why are we here.
— Yeah.
– No we should be back home.
— Yep.
– You’re distracted.
— Yes I am.
– Too much life. Ordinary shit.
— It’s good shit.
– Yeah I know. I know it’s good.
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– Still.
— It’s these fucking drugs.
– Fuck.
— But that’s how it is.
– If you say so.
— I have too much momentum now, and enough positive stimulus to keep it going.
– Shit can’t run in parallel.
— It is, it’s there, I just don’t have the space for it at the moment.
– That’ll be the drugs and you should kick them.
— Can’t do that. Not just yet.
– Could be worse.
— Still.

— Do you remember when we still had the house way out and the dialect formed, really quick over months.
– Yeah. Yes. Well, as in, it was forming for years but I get what you mean.
— See I feel like I’m pushing that kind of evolution but with people, in the externals.
– You reckon.
— I don’t know. Maybe. It feels good.
– You said yourself it can’t just be about how things feel.
— But home is exactly about how we feel, isn’t it?
– Home like Home, capital H?
— Yes.
– Yeah.
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– Yeah.
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– It is.
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— Things change. I’m thinking about Edgeland, about Karl, how he was, how he’s always been and more so how he is now.
– That’s what aging does.
— To us too you know.
– Oh hell yes, I’m not saying I want to be ageless which is more or less impossible anyway, but certain things get harder. Or more complicated. Or more obscured.
— Yes.
– I mean, consider No Hassle. Consider Womb. Consider Exit. That shit’s not for kids.
— An interesting phrasing, when you consider the tastes of older people.
– Too much externals, that reference isn’t useful for anything and we don’t use it to translate, interpret and process anyway.
— Very true.
– That’s the thing, I think, and I’m not saying it’s bad. The more external there is, the less internal there is, or something about access and permissions.
— That phrase again.
– Yes, and it was here, too, where it was said.
— When I think about it though, it’s about the same level of feedback or perhaps just as useful.
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– That’s what I thought.
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Silence

— Do you think there’s an imbalance?
– I don’t know. It’s worth finding out.
— Mmmm.
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— Mmmm.
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— Mm. (ref. Solaris/Soderbergh/McElhone)
– I’m going to review the syntax. All of it. From the beginning, even the early growth that wasn’t quite right.
— OK.
– I’ll let you know what I find. We should be there, when it moves again.
— No it’s moving, it’s more about access.
– Whatever. You should be there, when we go back. A lot’s happened and we haven’t been around for it which doesn’t bother me, but I want to translate it. I’ve decided that’s what I want to do, so you should be there.
— Sure. OK. Yeah, that’s a thing I can do, yes.
– OK.