Interruption | Distraction

At this point I’m unsure whether having an excess of sleep is a good thing, excess in this case being any at all.

Due to the fatigue my body was under, I suspect when it got to the point of having no sleep (night before last) it actually slowed my brain down a touch. Last night I was asleep by nine and awake at half seven. Considering I was in the usual two to four and a half hour sleep cycle, that’s an excess.

Today I seem to be at full speed.

The idea is to attempt sleeping early this evening and see if that helps. Of-course, there is a consideration to be made in that I don’t want to slow down at all, but hypomania really isn’t a good idea.

I had thoughts this morning, from when I woke up through to when I parked my car but I don’t like how efficiently work mode is engaged and I lose it. Now I don’t remember what it was I was going to say and it’s quite distressing. This precipitates iteration on work, the nature of work, the nature of survival, the nature of modes and when they’re good and bad etc. None of this is what I wanted in my headspace, but in it goes. It’ll do for now, a decent digestion at least.

No, apparently it won’t.
I’m now almost angry that I’ve lost the thoughts. Now I’m challenging the condition of my short term memory and what iterating so quickly is doing to it. I’ve retained every pragmatic detail from this morning but not any of my iterative thought. Work has moved in and replaced it and that is about the worst possible thing that can happen. Work is the least meaningful thing I engage in and I don’t like it crowding my thought space, in particular the shift from abstract to pragmatic.

I don’t like where I’m going with that. Work doesn’t belong here. I’m stopping for the moment.