First Swing lesson since March | Yarraville

Thursday nights at Acqua e Vino, Yaraville

Last night one of my good friends Tank invited me back to Swing as I haven’t been going since before I went to Japan. The reason I didn’t return immediately to Swing was of-course my health, and I haven’t been ready to have such close interaction with strangers since.

Tank and I joined level 1 at 7 pm which was an introduction to Balboa, then level 2 at 8 for 8-beat Lindy. Tank and a fellow dancer Lisa gave me a quick run-through of Lindy before the class and I pretty much picked it up on the spot.

Interacting with strangers is quite a different experience now. Several parts of my awareness are heightened immediately into paranoia, however I feel as though the medication helps keep that from exposing itself through the exterior. It’s strange indeed to feel myself regulated so, and it’s not at all entirely a pleasant experience. I’m begenning to question what life I will have if I’m to stay on medication in order to live a somewhat normal life. It feels as though it’s costing me something vital and important, yet that something is perhaps what bars me from normal behaviour in the first place; a conundrum indeed.

Nevertheless, I haven’t lost any of my Swing skills, so I may tentatively give a few more classes a go just to see if I can stay sane and not have everything go sideways. It is after all something I greatly enjoy, and I’ve been missing it these past months while I’ve been ill.