everyday heartbreak

I want to feel safe and secure
firm in the knwoledge of commitment
I need to be to be told that I’m loved everyday
brought countless little surprises
brought flowers and have candles lit
I need to be held
rocked back and forth in loving arms
a soul who is more patient than I
who I can fight with and still know that everything is alright
someone who understands my weaknesses
sees past my selfishness

someone who’s immediate response is to reach out for me when I fall
without question
without hesitation

I need to be believed in
I need to be obsessed about
given full undivided attetion
so that I know my belief and obsession is given in equality
I need to be cherished and treasured and told that I’m precious
I need to feel protected
to feel needed

but of these things
I receive none
and so all I can do is lie on the floor in the darkness
cry and cry and cry
until I fall asleep