Again with the flip flopping *edit*

I’m frustrated yet again. I’m up a pound or so from last week, this is pretty much how it always goes with me, I lose 20ish and it stops.

And then I quit.

I’ve got to figure out what it is that does this…my goal for the week is to not touch my extra 35 or my activity points if I can help it at all…and I say that not because I know I can’t but that if I’m ACTUALLY hungry I can’t see a point in starving myself. But I need to pay attention to whether I’m hungry or not when I decide that.

I’m going to up my exercise to see if that helps too…

I’d say cut carbs back but I really never ate many to begin with. I’m just not a carb craver. I refuse to go 100% without, that would be ignorant. I’ve already gone back to whole grains…

I need to seriously make sure I’m getting enough water for ME. 8 glasses isn’t enough for me, esp being on my meds.

Oh yeah. Quitting smoking would do wonders for me as well @@ *sigh*

On a more positive note for me…just so I don’t get myself too depressed, I DID have to tighten my work belt this month.

So that means something.

I joined a challenge group on WW online, to lose 25 lbs by Christmas.

It’s a decent goal, as we set it 25 weeks before, so a pound a week.

But the way my body is doing makes it aggravating.

I need to work on positive thinking. I honestly believe in it, an in the last several years have found myself moving further and further away from it. I do believe that it plays more than just a part in motivating or preventing depression over it…I’ve always believed that you cause a good amount of the things that happen in your life by how you feel about them.

So many changes…I’ve fallen so far from where I once was with that. Bleh.

I’m just bothered by a lot recently. So much I don’t even want to write about right now.

One thing at a time I guess.

Edit:
I just happened to wonder…could the birth control they put me on be hindering my weight loss? I started the up and down cycle round about the same time I started on the pill…

ugh and another month still until I go back 🙁