Pls wake me up!!

I am so lazy, and getting lost myself. Since I started my new job, I became very lazy on study. I don’t know how come I was changed. I know if I get the lower grade, then I will have a lower GPA…..I know how should I do, but still don’t have the energy to push myself…I want to stop my job or school, because I really cannot handle both on the same time.

Let’s give myself one more chance. I must try my best to handle both, because I have no way to go. Starting my plan today. First, I must do all homework. Second, I cannot sleep too much, even how tire I am….

Although I already lived in New York almost 2.5 years, my english still not good enough. Sometime, I hate myself, and I know how many you pay, then you will receive. Oh,,,,,,really hate myself, I still didn’t pass the ESL writing, and I really don’t understand what did the people say….English is very important, but I really hard to get it better. Anyway, I have to try my best…Noone can help me, cause it’s my life. If I want to have a better life, I have to do more work. I am not a kid, and I have to do what I should do. My future is handle by myself, and I don’t want to regret. At least, I have to try, no matter how bad on the result…

If I go back HK, I only have the high school degree. That’s mean, I didn’t improve myself even I went to NY. Don’t waste my time. I know if I try, and I will have a good future….

Always remind myself!!!!!!!Time to think about my future….no output, no input