Time Square Can’t Shine As Bright As You.

It’s hard to not smile these days.

I have G all to myself, thanks to winning the case.
I have lilly home with me 5 nights a week.
G is sleeping enough to keep me rested.
The house is normally moderately clean
i still have a few weeks off until school starts.
I have a 3.5 running gpa.
I have my own house, a running car, both of which have air conditioning.
I am really digging the new direction i’ve decided to take regarding my schooling
And i have a boyfriend who adores me.

OH. Did you miss that? i’m sorry, let me repeat it for you.

i have a boyfriend who adores me.

We have so much in common, if i told you, you wouldn’t even believe me. He’s sweet, and caring, and so damn funny, and so considerate, Silly and lighthearted, He adores kids, He’s a natural caregiver, He’s cheesy in all the right ways, and he can make my heart skip a beat without even trying. And he makes me feel so loved, and appreciated, and just cared for.. It’s really indescribable.. but if i could bottle it up, i’m almost positive i could cure cancer.

But more importantly, when i started talking to him, I just felt so overwhelmed. I was almost in tears, because i knew.. I Knew this is how it’s supposed to be. This is the thing that was missing in my other relationships. Right off the bat it felt like i was talking to an old friend. I felt like i’d finally come home after being gone for so long. And when he tells me about his life, it feels like he’s telling me about mine.

There’s only one problem.. He doesn’t live here. He actually lives 7.5 hours away from me. So.. We’re giving this long distance thing a shot, and honestly.. I don’t remember a time i’ve ever been this happy. Truly.

The past few nights, we’ve spent ~~the majority of~~ the night talking to each other. 10.5 hours the first night, and 12 hours another.. etc.. Straight. That is not including texting or facebook messages. I didn’t know i could enjoy talking to somebody this much. Just knowing that they’re there makes everything feel so.. perfect. I can’t even wrap my mind around the things we talk about.. or how we never seem to have enough time to say all the things we want to say, .. how have we not even run out of things to talk about? There’s not a lot of sleeping going on in my house, and it’s entirely my fault. But I couldn’t be happier. Really.

needless to say, we’re absolutely disgusting right now.

like, Clear the room disgusting with how much we’re into each other. the making fake gagging noises and telling them to get a room kind of disgusting.

It’s a kind of feeling i imagine books are based off of and in a way movies wish they could make you feel.

and yet all of it, even the pathetically gushy stuff i’ll spare you guys.. Feels so natural.

And that’s the part that amazes me. Nothing has ever compared to this feeling. and i’m not scared anymore. I’m not worried he’s going to hurt me or leave me.. all i feel is amazing.

I don’t even know who this girl is that i’ve turned into.. But i adore her.