My eye on the prize

  I am being consumed. Consumed by the most powerful of thoughts and emotions and a great presence now abides within the very fibre of my being. Even like the mightiest of pines swaying during the onslaught of a tumuluous tempest, I am at the mercy of that which consumes. This is not your typical storm even tho it has the power in which it can destroy even the mightest, this is a storm of blessing, gratitude, and a taste of things to come and is welcomed openly.

 I am in a whirlwind of astonishment and joy and at the same time I am overtaken by a great fear. This fear is real and is most terrifying. It will never be able to be put completely at rest. This fear might lie dormant and seem forgotten in the far reaches of my mind and not be seen or thought about again but one thing is for certain and that is it will still be there.

 When the night comes and the time for rest is at hand, I lay down and close my eyes and drift off into the world of dreams and of wonder. It is at this time that the great presence from within my being arises and becomes tangiable. This great presence is my heart but better known as my most beautiful and lovely Goddess. It is at this time that my day becomes fulfilled for I am holding her and showing her a love unlike any other, an undying and eternal love to never be repeated.  My Goddess is with me as I am with her. Holding each other close an becoming as one walking among the great heavens above for all time.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

My thoughts are many but are only of one. My emotions are all of love of one. The presence is of that of my heart, my Goddess. I dedicate this to the one that my thoughts are comsumed of and the feelings of love soley belong to. I dedicate this to my most precious, lovely and beautiful lady that I call Goddess.

 To the one that I call Goddess, I make this promise, this oathe, this solemn vow. I promise to always be faithful and true and want no other for I will always only want you. I will never intentionally hurt you in any way, shape, or form. I will always be by your side and give you my support. I will never look down at you but will instead give you praise. I will make mistakes but will do my best to correct them. I will show and give you more love than you can ever hope for and shall do so until the end of eternity.

 The fear that I spoke of earlier is the fear of failure and of loss. I fear that I might do something to jeapordize that which I treasure the most and lose her because of something I did wrong or failed to do. Although this fear may lie dormant it will be awake just enough to keep me focused and to keep my eye on the prize so to speak. It is because of this fear that I will succeed.