Confused

I have oppurtunities in life. I have so many options. I have the option to be with him, I want to. But I don’t know if that is the right thing to do. Last time I took that option I lost so much. So much I thought I would die. Now here it is again. But this time, I am loved. I am so loved. I see it in the way he smiles with his eyes. His small touches just to be close to me. The feel of his lips on mine, soft and tender, lingering. I want to be with him, and he will wait for me. Wait for me to finish school and accomplish my goals and dreams. But I can’t get over the pain that that other caused. That wound has not completley healed.