single again,cute gay man = heart-breaker/friend

 Michael left me earlier this week. He send me a text telling me to take a hike didnt give an explination for his actions. He told he didnt want to talk to me anymore so I deleted his phone number.  He told me he didnt love me even though everything he did and said showed opposite until that point. Due to my hesitance I didnt become to emotionaly over involved in this relationship when he left I did feel numb and sad but no a tear was shed. My friend Amanda threatened to beat him for "breaking my heart" I wouldn’t tell her where his lived for his safety. Amanda has been my best friend for 13 years now. She’s a bit crazy but I must admit she’s an awesome friend.

 I met a guy today I really like. I had to do register training for him at Kmart. His name is Alex Fakourey. I found him simply adorable. I couldn’t help but break my heart when I realized he is gay! A man that amazing should never be gay. He is attractive a good personality and excellent communication skills. I ended up hitting off for him really well. I ended up driving him home where I realized that 3 out of 4 people living in the house is gay and all are geniuses!  I sat in amusement as they argued the possibly of the big bang,physics,aliens from other planets and D&D.  Now I know how PEnny feels like from the Big Bang Theory.

  I love hearing intellectual people argue. I ate it up like candy! In between my amusement. Alex and I talked about how men are dogs. Religious points of view and how We should go shopping together. Ok so Alex is gay and cant be my boyfriend. That doesnt mean that I cant have me a shopping buddy! This isnt my exboyfriend Alex Estep. dont confused my ex Alex Estep for my now friend Alex Fakourey. I added Alex Fakourey on facebook and I caught myself praying that his friends didnt find me to boring or severely ignorant.  I am average intellegence sitting and listening to them gave me a headache but its very rewarding. I hope that I will be fortunate enough to return to hang out with them again. Alex gave me a website to explain the universe and scientific theories my next day off I intend to watch some of them. I am excited Alex Fakourey is around because I have someone to share my person library with. YAY! I hope I can continue this friendship because I enjoy him so much. I dont know if his friends feel the same about me though.

 While shadowing Alex Fakourey at work I must admit it was my first day at work I ever had fun at all! He’s is so cheerful even in the worst of circumstances. He does everything he can in order to make me laugh. He always was cheering me up and being so supportive and than he tells he that he cant find a boyfriend. Are you kidding me? I believe I might have to go out and find him a boyfriend after all anyone who can cheer a grump like me up would be amazing in a relationship. I think I might know a few guys who might be Alex Fakourey’s type. I wish he was straight so I was his type *pouts* Oh well.

 During his conversation he told me that he was jealous of most women. I asked him why and he told me he always wanted to have a baby that is biologicaly his however due to his homosexual status he is unable to have a biological child. I asked him about a surrogate. He confessed since he was a child he always wanted to know the sensation of being pregnant and how that must be the most amazing thing in the world. I never thought of it like that because I guess I take it for granet. It made me grateful to someday choose to bring a child into this life. I caught myself wishing at times that Alex Fakourey could do the same poor dear.

 I know its weird to write a diary entry like this but I think Alex is really amazing. He’s been trying to teach me biology and physics. I love a smart man. I keep kicking myself that he’s gay and I keep praying he has a cute straight friend….NIGHT!