problem with cashiers & periods,sick,fed up

I have been sick for several days with a cold. Earlier this week I lost my voice. I called in whispering my boss told me to come in anyway because they were short staffed come to find out my friend Alex Fakourey quit his job. I came in later on to discover during my shift I started my period as well. I asked my boss if I could have a fifteen she told me I didn’t work long enough to get a fifteen. I told her I am bleeding down my damn leg can I go get a pad on. She tried to argue with me that I was walking away from the customers yet there wasnt a person in my line. I wanted to smack her when she said that. I told her bleeding down my leg on my customers items are a bio hazard. She argued with me I should have known my period was coming. I have been feeling lousy for days now I just assumed it was my cold. My boss Courtney wanted to continue to argue I told her let me change my underwear and put on a damn pad or she can finish this shift alone. A customer got disgusted and decided to let me ring up my pads and underwear. Courtney rolled her eyes angered when I went back to the bathroom to changed. When I came back she tried to argue with me and I told her don’t worry Courtney you’ll get over it. She growled at my irritated the rest of the day. I am sorry but when mother nature brings her gift the customers just have to wait! She screamed at me the customers always come first. I wanted to scream back not when you have a crime scene going on in your pants…Damn woman let me put on a pad!

Even though I am sick when Jennifer decided she wanted to call in they didn’t tell her no like they did me. I don’t know her reasoning but decided even though I am sick and nyquil is causing me to be a tad bit high and delusional they decided I can work a 12 hour shift yesterday. My nose was running I was begging for tissues but they wouldn’t even let me get away from my register to blow my nose. I was ringing up customers crying a bit because I felt so bad. My managers got irritable with me and I told a manager if she didn’t keep her bitchy comments to herself she would complete this shift on her own that I should have called in instead I am trying to help them out as a favor. I need the money but I don’t need the ill treatment! She insulted me and told me she’s not feeling well that she’s sick too. There is no purpose of being a bitch! She can stick to herself and work. I don’t want ill comments. God knows I feel bad enough without them.

I want another job so bad I can taste it. I have had just about enough with the treatment. I was just informed at the end of this month they will be opening a Halloween City. I cannot wait until they open my favorite day of the year is Halloween because I can dress up and act like a weirdo and no one says anything. I would love to work there but I know I wont be able to work there. I got a call earlier this week from Suntan City for a job interview they don’t like me working Kmart and dismissed me. I almost cried. I don’t understand I am willing to have two jobs but no one is willing to arrange me a second job. I cant believe me having a job prevents me from getting a better job.

I hate being alone I want to date again but I don’t have the patience for mind games. My friends could probably find me a blind date but I don’t see the point. I been feeling really defeated. I guess I’d rather be alone then wonder why they are there. Maybe I am just better single…night!