so… yeah…

its 3.30am right now.. and today i have a counsellor appointment. my case manager told me at my last appointment that they now have one in the office, they just go to a soundproof room for it. and asked me if i was interested. there isnt much left for me to try anymore.

i’ve been so close to just giving up, i’m just so damn… its more than a sad feeling.. its absolutely crushing me. i cant smile anymore. so.. yeah. i said i was interested. and so i’m going there at 2pm.

i want to be able to say what i feel in here. i see so many other people who are able to.. why cant i?