quick updates

so, i’m officially the heaviest weight i have ever been. i’m not going to put down a number cos i am already ashamed to the max. my exercise physiologist is absolutely GORGEOUS and he freakin weighed me. ugh. so many ughs.

i want to join a gym, but mum says its a waste of money. i’m taking my medication that my dad says i should throw out because he thinks all i need to do is go out and achieve something to feel better.

actually, i havent taken my medication tonight cos the last three times i went to fill my script the pharmacy didnt have them. three -different- pharmacies. lol. so tomorrow i am going to send mum out hunting for them, cos one night is okay, but two is not.

my grandmothers birthday gathering was tonight. it went okay until my cousin went spastic and started telling off her mum (my aunt) who then broke a glass by accident (she put it on the table too hard)

my legs are swollen..

my latest career choice is library assistant. lol. lets see how long this one sticks. starting a course for certificate II in business so even if the library assistant thing doesnt work out i can still have something to fall back on. studying isnt so bad in the end… is it?

 

 

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October 12, 2013

You have to do what’s good for you. You’re old enough to make your own decisions. I know that, even when we’re grown up, we still see our parents as parents, but take a step back, just see them as other adults and think “Would I take this from anyone else?” Good luck with whatever your decision is 🙂

October 12, 2013

Babe in Toyland’s advice is perfect. I would just add, speaking as someone who has always had issues with her weight, don’t be ashamed by the number. It’s just a number – a stupid, idiotic, annoying number, but weight is just weight and it is nothing at all to do with who you are. When you beat yourself up over a number and tell yourself that you’re a good person or a bad person based on whatever the scale says, it’s really difficult to let food be what it is – just food. I have always been an emotional/depressive eater, and I really think overeating is one way our brains tell us there’s something we need to pay attention to – something that we’re pushing aside and covering up by giving all our attention to comfort food instead. And my “our” I mean “me” lately! It IS easy to say and hard to do, but not letting your weight tell you who you are is a big part of it.

October 14, 2013

RYN: I can’t dance to save my life, haha! Flailing, yes….I guess that would burn off some calories!

October 15, 2013

RYN: I know the music you mean. Bel is slightly obsessed with watching videos of people doing it on YouTube. She likes what the girls wear!

October 15, 2013

RYN – yes, that does totally count!