quick update, explanations later.

 so, mum asked me to ask dad to ask nanny if she can come to the funeral.

dad doesnt really mind, so he said if she wants to she can..

i can tell this may not end well at all.. lol..

my dads side of the family flat out dislike mum. like.. absofuckingloutely. when my dad brought it  up to my aunt yesterday in the car she went OFF. "i think it;s disrespectful blah blah blah"

wouldnt it be more disrespectful if she didnt care? if she didnt want to come?

also…

my dads ex chrissie will be there. and so will dads current girlfriend lauren, lol…

you see.. chrissie knows about lauren, and is okay with it. but lauren doesnt really know about chrissie. and my nanny has been accidentally calling lauren chrissie all week. not to mention that chrissie is also what my aunt ellen calls me sometimes. and lauren is also my sisters name. so.. its a little weird.

it is 1pm now. and the funeral is in two hours.

i’m so anxious cos even though i have everything layed out on my chair that i need for today, i still feel like i’m forgetting something.

it doesnt help that i feel bad about forgetting to give dad his tie when he dropped me home last night..

so yeah.. mum being at the funeral is more than likely going to create a huge shitfit from my aunts. i dont know if nanny will be okay with it, seeing as mum sent her flowers and she told me to thank her for them repeatedly. so.. i dunno. i’ll update about it tomorrow.