dinosaurs are awesome :D

i’m doing okay i guess. still feeling like before. but i think i just got over the shock and disappointment. the fear?

it shouldnt have surprised me though. i was talking about my past history with doctors/psychologists the other day, i’ve never had any stability there. i’d be assigned to one, i’d go long enough to get comfortable and feel okay with opening up to them, then one day they tell me they are being transferred or get another job somewhere.. its not fair.. 

then the new one would come in and expect me to be all happy and chatty with them. uhh no. if i dont know you i wont share. although if i feel someone doesnt like me i still wont share too.. i had one that was so awful once. she would talk over me, tell me that i was fake and that she couldnt help me cos i wouldnt talk. 

i wonder why.. i stopped going to her after four sessions. i was done. i havent gone to another psychologist since.. and i think that all happened last year sometime. i dont want another bad one.. i just want a nice one.. someone that wont leave me.. you know?

i guess i should be used to it.. just about everyone that can leave does.