08/30/2012

 my mum wants me to be normal. to act like a normal person my age. 

how can i be normal when i dont know what normal is?

doctors appointment today. its 12.30am right now.. and i’m not tired. tried to talk to dad about things tonight, he either talked over me or didnt listen. as usual. dont even know why i bothered.

dads ex girlfriend went to his place while me and my sister were there. i ignored her. i hate her. i kinda liked her while her and my dad went out. even had her added to facebook. but.. one day she just dumped dad, deleted my family members she added to facebook. didnt even bother saying anything to me. so fuck her. i hope her and dad arent going out again. it didnt look like it, but cant be too sure. my grandma invited her to my cousins birthday this weekend. i dont want to go cos she is going to be there, and i dont really feel like being civil towards the stupid bitch.

my feet are all blistered cos of my stupid shoes. i walked alot yesterday, i thought those shoes would be okay to wear cos they were fine and comfortable the last few times i wore them. nope. so.. they are now just for going out to lunches and stuff. short trips. i’m worried about tomorrow cos it does hurt to walk about. today i wore my slippers. cos i just went to my dads house. it didnt really matter.. but tomorrow i have to go into public. i cant do that then.

i havent called the dentist yet.. i am more than scared to.. someday..

umm…. i dont know. i think i ran out of things to write about.. so here is a picture.