they’re just jealous cus we’re young and in love

i want to buy a video camera, and video everything i see.  i’ll call it "mush’s regular but spectacular life" or something.  i want to take the train downtown tomorrow but the latest one leaves at 8:10 or something but its after 2am and i’m nowhere near bed yet. 

i want to take lots of pictures, i want to be artsy fartsy and run around like one of those maniacs who never says anything.  just takes pictures. 

my aunt got the information wanted to look into for a program in school.  i’m trying, as always, to sort something out.  i’m 21, and i feel old, and young, at the same time. 

we hydroplaned like no tomorrow on the long drive back from the movie theatre.  it rained and rained and i sat in the backseat like when i was little.  i tightened my seatbelt and stared out the window, and thought about what i would do if we went off the road and into the river beside us.  i wonder if we’d float or sink.  (does it depend on the car?)  that wasn’t a morbid thought either.  i’ve always thought "what if" situations in my head and i realized i must look crazy with my furrowed brow staring out windows thinking so hard.  hm.

i stumbled upon another random site, called http://www.youtube.com and watched a video of these kids in california or something singing in their band, and hanging out having a good time and being teenagers.  its crazy.  everybody thinks no one else does that shit, hang out at denny’s at 2am on atuesday in the summer, but we all do.  its just amazing no one ever runs into eachother. 

i want to play guitar and sing in a denny’s parking lot.  or just watch.  being the center of attention is trying.

this has been a random entry.  off the top of my head.  tomorrow i am going to check out camera prices at future shop.  goodnight.