grey is your colour

start my new job this thursday.  don’t really want to go.  i mean, when i wake up that morning, i’ll say to myself, i really would love to just not go.  but i’ll go probably.  its what i do.

took a long walk at the end of a movie that made me and anny think too much.  we circled the neighbourhood and i smoked and we did lunges.  couldn’t tell ya why we did lunges either.  but we talked and talked and at the end of it all i said "another long discussion with no obvious solutions" because its always what happens.  there seems to be no black and white, that everything is just grey.  and as anny says "at least grey is your colour" .. which made me laugh and realize that nothing is ever as serious as it appears.

my world is a series of loose plans.