frankie says r e l a x

i actually used the phrase "quarter life crisis", lyrics from a john mayer song, to describe the state of a lot of people i know right now.  how lame is that.  but, it felt fitting, and god knows the little man who stands at the door of my mouth and watches what i say was off duty or playing patty cake with himself or something again.  frickin retard.  whatever. 

i have no, no idea what i’m doing right now.  i feel like my map flew out the window when i was like two, and i’ve been wingin’ it ever since.  my damn positive attitude wore thin tonight, and i snapped and basically curled up in a ball bawling.  which, seriously, doesn’t that say something about where i am right now?

"everything happens for a reason / its no reason / not to ask myself / am i living it right?"

thanks john.  (jesus.)  i’m going to bed now.  my will has two black eyes, but tomorrow is another day.