Last Day of 2012

My gas total at 7-11? $20.12

What did I accomplish his year?  Let me make a list.  The good and the bad.

• I lost 34 lbs.  I gained a few back 😉
• I bought lingerie.
• I wore lingerie.
• My confidence grew.
• My sex life improved a tenfold.
• ….after I nearly threw it all away.   I feel like an idiot admitting it, but things were stagnant at best between these walls for some time before I had enough of feeling neglected.  I sought attention elsewhere, and learned a lot about things I had no clue about.  See the list above.  That is how I salvaged my marriage.  Did I cheat in order to save my marriage?  Perhaps mentally, yes, but not physically.  I chatted and left it at that…it was enough for me, to know I had that sort of power over a man.  All the while I knew I’d eventually get caught, and have to explain myself.  It happened, and so I did.  From there things have grown, but only better.  Do I consider myself off the hook?  No, but every day is a step in the right direction.  My husband is a forgiving man, and has done nothing but make a conscious effort to be a devoted and loving and attentive husband since this all went down.  He’s also lost 30 lbs.  He’s an open book…and he’s amazing.
• Battled depression on and off.
• Made some great friends.
• Switched Churches,  and consider myself better off for doing so.
• Stepped outside my shell.  Stepped outside my comfort zone.
• Embraced being 36.
• Spent time with my kids.
• Found acceptance.